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Monday, May 31, 2010

a little late, but two years ago...

I gave birth to my youngest. Gosh, it seems like only yesterday I was emailing everyone to let them know i was going to be delayed with their reading as I had a newborn! Time really does go by quite fast.

When we decided to start trying for our youngest, I immediately used my positive thinking techniques that are located in this blog (use the label section on the left side to access this information). I actually got pregnant the first month I tried this. I was excited, but also shocked to learn I would have another child in the same month as my first. If you actually look at my posts in August 2007, you will notice a post about a dream I had. Involving me and my sister and my dad going into a tunnel/waterslide and coming out at the bottom, and eventually going into another area that had two pools. The funny thing is, I remember this dream to a T, and even translated wondering if it meant i was pregnant.. which sure enough it did.

With my pregnancy with my first, I bled off and on during my pregnancy, and found out how common this really can be. So if you are pregnant and experinece bleeding, please dont panic at first. It can be a number of reasons and doesn't always mean a m/c is about to happen.

My second pregnancy was more textbook including the fact I had swelling in my ankles! That was NOT fun!.

With my labor, I wanted the baby to come on her own. Within a few days of her EDD, i used visualizing techniques, seeing my cervix opening and relaxing, and seeing myself give birth to my healthy baby girl. This was about 2 days before I actually gave birth. The fun experinece was, that the night of May 25th, my eldest, had woken me up at 1:30am. (so technically the morning of the 26th) She had to goto the washroom. Not normal for her to wake up, but fine whatever. I goto the washroom myself and notice I am bleeding. Of course, like any other pregnant woman I panic and worry about what is going on. I call the hospital who tells me to just come in and they will check me. My husband, used to me bleeding during pregnancy with my first, tells me to just relax and come back to bed (this is funny now, but was not funny then! lol). I tell him I would rather go in and get checked for piece of mind. My In laws come to watch my daughter and we head into the hospital. I am concerned worried, something is going to go wrong, but on the Radio comes the song "I'm coming out" by Dianna Ross. It was then I felt more comforted. My labor started around 2:30am. My youngest was born (I used the gas for pain relief) at 7:33am. (my eldest was 3:37am - I think its cool that its the same numbers, just backwards).

I love reading birth stories and fertility stories, so please, if you would like to share either, I will draw two winners. One for birth story and one for a fertility storey. Winner to be announced on FRIDAY

Sunday, May 30, 2010

I did something stupid...

okay perhaps it was two things. Since I am able to laugh at myself, and its always fun to laugh when someone has done something stupid (in a good way of course), I figured I would share it you all so that you can laugh right along.

First, I had pictures of my mom that we used for the funeral. Pictures I had, my sister, my mom's husband. I took the boards home we had taped them too with the intention of getting them back to the people they belonged to. I put them in a box, and left it on the ground. My sister had the remaining pictures that never made it on the board and I figured when I got them all together, I would seperate it then. Well, my sister brought me the rest today, I get home after my youngests second birthday party and go to put them all together. Only this time the pictures are gone from the first batch. I look in the computer room, I look in boxes that I have. They are NO WHERE to be found. This is when I panic. These pictures mean something to me (and other people that are expecting them back) only to realize that the box that they were in, had possibly gone to value village when I dropped off a box full of stuff there almost a month ago. My heart sunk. Realizing that this is probably where the pictures have gone, and trying to wrack my brain with an apology to the people I would now be telling that these pictures are gone. I asked my mom (for those of you recently tuning in, my mom passed away March 8, 2010) to please help me locate them. It was then, my eyes were drawn to a small shaped box to my right. Inside where the pictures! Thank you mom! I did feel stupid though as I remember now putting that box there, out of the way when I took the other box to value village.

As some of you also know, I purchased a lap top about a month ago. I figured with my youngest not sleeping properly and me working in my computer room downstairs it was getting difficult with hearing her getting up and walking around looking for me. So with the laptop I work upstairs and here if she needs me. I can also accomplish alot more during the day as well. Anyways, the last week the keyboard has been going crazy. First, the c button was not working, then the next day it was the d button. This was driving me crazy. It would work but you had to push REALLY hard on it to get it to write that. I figured I could live without the d as I really dont use it alot. Then, last night it was the E. I had no idea what was going on. There are ALOT of E's to be used while typing and when you type as fast as I do, its quite a piss off not being able to just type normally but having to go back or hit another key really hard to ensure that its going to be in there!. So I managed and turned the key off. Part of me thinking I am going to have to return the laptop as its not working, but have never heard of keys not working in different spots. You would think it would just stay the one key. Well, last night when starting to my readings, it turned out the R button was not working. I would push it and NOTHING would happen. This was really making me PISSED off! I even pushed hard (okay I admit it, I hit the dam key with my finger a few times!). I even tried lifting the key up slightly to see why it was jammed. Turns out, there was a tiny little plastic piece that came off a clothing tag under the key. It had been traveling all along the last few days and getting under certain keys and moving around. Gosh I feel pretty silly for not thinking of looking before and just going crazy with what was happening!

I figured it gave me a good laugh, hopefully gave you all a good laugh as well

Friday, May 28, 2010

Another option out there?

I recently got an email from my client talking about embryo adoption. I had NEVER heard of this before and thought that perhaps some of you have not either and would like to hear about other options. Here is my clients story.

One thing I’ve learned is that there are many different paths to parenthood. Our own personal journey led my husband and I toward embryo adoption.
For us, adoption was always a backup plan. Four years ago- before seven IUI’s, two IVFs and a small fortune in meds- we explored our thoughts and resolved that if we can’t get pregnant, we will adopt.

We felt that our second round of IVF might be our last hope of having our own biological child. We started with two fresh cycles, but both failed. So our last FET with two leftover embryos from the previous cycles truly seemed like our absolute last chance. It resulted in a pregnancy, but then sadly a miscarriage after nine weeks.

According to our original plan, our next step was the adoption agency. We had already selected an agency about a year ago, and had learned as much as we could about the adoption process.
But during this very sad time, my acupuncture doctor suggested embryo adoption. I had heard of that option before, but as with other possible options, I had never really considered it.
While lots of my friends in my support group were discussing donor eggs, I really was not drawn to that. And surrogacy never came to my mind either, maybe because of the enormous expensive. We agreed that we are not going to have a child and be completely broke.

But somehow embryo adoption sounded more and more interesting to us as we looked into it. If you know anything about regular adoption, then you know that it can be very expensive, with lots of legal requirements.

Embryo adoption -as presented to us- seemed like a much easier route. Basically, couples that have had IVF treatments often have left over embryos that are kept preserved in cold storage. If they conceive without using all of their stored embryos, they can choose to donate their leftovers for adoption.

For people in our situation, this process bypasses many of the legal hurdles of full adoption. And often- not always- there is only the cost of the frozen embryo transfer and legal fees. Altogether, it can be up to ten times less expensive than adoption!

Not all IFV clinics have an embryo adoption program, but we were lucky enough to be referred by my acupuncture doctor to one that does. While some embryo adoption programs can be a lot more complicated than others, on the whole it’s less complicated than the full adoption process.

I had accepted that my being pregnant was not as important as having a child of our own no matter how we got there. Still, I find the prospect of being pregnant and carrying our adopted child to be a major plus of embryo adoption. Of course I know that there is no guarantee of success, but as ever, there is always hope.

L.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

So what would you do?

I have always wondered when watching American idol when they show the people at the beinging who just can't sing yet insist that they are amazing and can't figure out why everyone has turned them down. If you were their friends/family would you not tell them the truth that they can't sing? Or do you spare their feelings and tell them how wonderful they will be and be in "shock" that they did not make it?

This is always such a tricky position to be in.. Would love to hear other peoples opinion on what you would say/do if in this position. Do you let your friend or family member find out on their own with their abilities, or do you break it to them gently to not quit their day job?

Monday, May 24, 2010

Let see what happens shall we?

I have been in contact with someone named Tania. Shes going to be posting on the blog articles that she writes about fertility that should help those of you who are trying to conceive. I have seen samples of her writing which are always really informative, which is why I have allowed her to contribute to the blog. I think that its going to be really beneficail to all of my clients. You can never really have too much information when it comes to your body and trying to conceive.

So keep an eye out for a post from her. I am not sure when shes going to do her first one, but it will have her name on it so you know its from her.

On a side note, I went with my husband and my two girls camping this weekend. I was a bit afraid at first because of BEARS! I really do not like them. On our way up the mountain, we did see a small black bear off the side of the road. I was really hoping our campsite was no where near there. Thankfully it wasn't. We ended up camping in a wide open field with about 20 other campers (we knew some of them). I did not end up seeing any bears while we were there which is good.

You know how you get a bad impression from someone? I always try to listen to my intuition as its been proven right so many times. There was a guy there, who had 4 year old daughter. He just did not sit well with me. My daughter and her friend wanted to go for a walk, as it was getting later and would be bed time soon, I told them to stay within sight, no going for a walk and to stay away from the woods. About 10 minutes I turn around, and notice them in the woods. I ask my Mother in law to watch my youngest, and go "marching" over there. The one thing about me, I am consistant, and follow through, I do not like being "ignored" with my "rules". I am pretty flexible, but when I say something, I do expect my own daughter (who is now 7) to be able to follow it. I get there, and that dad is with his daughter, his girlfriend and my eldest and her friend and another little kid in the woods. Hes trying to take their picture. I call my daughter and her friend over and remind them what I had asked. Not giving them crap, but being stern about it and my expectations. The dad comes over and tells me that I should not be giving them crap but him instead as it was him who told them to come into the woods for a few minutes. I then explained that both my daughter and her friend are 7 and are old enough to tell him that they were told NOT to enter the woods and should not have gone in there. (to which my daughter replied that she DID tell him that but he insisted it would be for only a minute) What kind of parent tries to get the kids to go against what they were told? (regardless if he thought it was a silly rule or that they would only be a minute). If I was him, I would have told the girls to go ask their parent if it was okay for just a few minutes.. Perhaps I am over protective?

He is just kinda "creepy" and kinda made me feel uncomfortable with the way he talked and acted this weekend, and I would rather have avoided him entirely.

Anyways, for those of you who had a long weekend, I hope it was an enjoyable one. I will be posting again in the next day or so with another contest!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

BEEP...BEEP... here is the winner!

Congrats to lucky winner number 26! (Klynne). I really wish I could give you all a free reading! Perhaps one day you just never really know right!

Yesterday was a difficult day for me (as those of you on my facebook would have seen my post) You know when you have one of those days, where you usually have a certain friend or family member you would have called to vent to? Well my mom would have been that person. I can't believe shes been gone for almost three months now.

Today while going to get dinner for my husband and myself and my mom's husband, I was sitting in the line up for the drive thru, and new my mother was with me. It was really nice to have her there.

On a completely different topic, I got an email from someone who is very knowledgeable about fertilty and she wanted to start posting articles shes written (about fertility and such) on my blog. I have taken a look at her blog already and found the information on there really informative and thought you might all benefit from having someone posting this kind of information perhaps once a month. Right now we are just chatting back and forth trying to figure everything out. How it will work, the type of information she would like to share (I am VERY protective of my clients and would prefer to ask tons of questions before I even go any further). So I wanted to give you guys all a heads up on what I am hoping to do and will provide more information on whatever direction I decide to take.

I am hoping that all of you are having a very good day and looking forward to starting up with the psychic testing again for give aways!

Sunday, May 16, 2010

7 years ago today

I gave birth to my "baby" girl. I can't believe that she turns 7 today!. We are having her birthday party today as well and shes got about 20 kids coming over to jump on the trampoline and play in the bouncy castle and whatever they happen to get into. My mom's husband is also doing a magic show for the kids. Hes really good and I know the kids are going to enjoy it. Hes pretty entertaining.

I remember when I was trying to concieve for her. After pestering my husband for a YEAR after we got married. He wanted to wait a year after we were married, and I wanted to start right away. He gave in just shy of a year. I remember the first month when we tried and my period showed up. I was discouraged. I guess I really just wanted to have it happen the first time! The second month I was upset when my period showed up and complained to my husband who told me it would happen when it was supposed to and not to stress about it (if only it was that easy right??) When my period showed up the third time I cried. I will admit it, I did. It was then that I was doubting that I would be able to have any kids. I know, sounds silly to worry about that, but I bet you can all relate. It was then that I realized I was approaching this wrong. Here I was bawling that I was not pregnant yet, and very upset, and realized that trying to concieve should be just as much fun as any other time in my life. I then told myself that I was not going to get upset about it anymore. That I knew that it would happen when it was meant to and was releasing myself of all my stress and worry.

It was then that I "invented" my positive thinking excersies that I have posted on my blog (you probably can locate it on the label section on the left side of this blog). I remained in bed for 20 minutes after having sex, never getting up, and then I saw with my mind, the sperm traveling up, watched them go into the egg, and then saw the egg split into a baby and implant into my uterus (of course all using my mind) I said a few positive things (again posted with the instructions should you want to try this too!) That month, my period showed up again. I didn't think anything of it, did not get upset and just decided to let things happen as they may.. A day later, my period dissapeared. I was a bit shocked. I took a pregnancy test and it was POSITIVE! Imagine my excitment!

I actually had a social induction with my daughter. I had wanted my Dr I had during my entire pregnancy to deliver my baby so she had me "gelled". It was 9pm at night the contractions started. I actually called the hospital around 12:30pm because the contractions were around 5 minutes apart. The nurse told me I sounded too "chipper" and that I was not ready to come in yet. This being my first baby, I took her word for it. From that time until 2:00am, I slept off and on through my contractions. It was then that I woke up to not being able to breathe through the contractions as well. I called the nurses again who said I should come in to be assessed. I thought, sure, I have seen those baby shows, they bring you in and send you home again! I even told my mother in law not to bother coming and that we would be back. I also said not to bother notifying any of my family as I did not want to have to wake them up for a false alarm.

I got there to the hospital where they weighed me (I still have no idea why they did that!) and was told to go and change into a hospital gown which I did. (still at this point thinking they were going to send me home). It was also now I asked for ANYTHING to help with the pain. Imagine my surprise, when she had to turn me down because she said I would be pushing any minute! Oh my gosh, the first words out of my mouth was "Call my mom!". I had no idea it would all happen so fast. My little girl was born 3:37am. I had only been in the hospital for 45 minutes at that point. My own Dr just about missed the birth (she showed up as my daughter was crowning). I had only been able to use the gas for pain relief and honestly this was all that I found I needed. It really did help me get through the contractions.

So for those of you who are currently trying to concieve, keep the hope alive. Remain positive and try and have fun with the trying part. It will happen and I am more than happy to help direct you to a month and try and help make your experinece a happy one.

Leave a comment in the comment section (even if its just to say happy birthday to my eldest lol) and be entered to win a sibling express reading from me (valued 15.00) winner to be announced on WEDNESDAY.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Some dreams, I wish I could forget!

This morning, my youngest woke me up at 6am which is okay since i got to sleep the entire night (whoo hoo!), but I woke up from a horrible dream. In it, my mom was alive, which is nice, but my sister had died. According to my mom from getting too mad! I know that sounds silly! Then in the dream, my one friend died too.. It was just horrible and I was so upset! I woke up this morning, and called my sister. No answer. Not like her at all. You get that uneasy feeling. I then call my friend.. she does not answer. This is starting to drive me nuts! After 10 minutes I finally heard from both of them, but it drove me nuts that they did not answer the first time.

I do not like dreams like those. It was nice to see/hear my mom in that dream, as thats certianly one thing I miss, but the rest of the dream can go away!

This week is going to be busy for me. I have someone coming to clean the carpets tomorrow downstairs, as my daughter turns 7 on sunday and we are having her birthday party here. Shes going to have her friends play on the trampoline and we bought a bouncy castle (it was on sale for 60.00!!!!) So should be busy but fun.

I also have to take my youngest today into the dr. Her stitches that are supposed to be dissolving ones are NOT coming out! There are some of them still in there so he is going to take them out today.

I also have a client that has offered to share their ttc journey and I thought you might all like it!



Well, I have 2 boys. With my first I tried for 2 1/2 years and was met with nothing but heartache. I DID conceive several times but once was a heterotopic pregnancy (twins: one ectopic, one in uterus) and both were lost and this was followed by 2 miscarriages. I even lost my oldest son's twin.
With my 2nd son I wasn't even trying. In truth, I wasn't really "trying" when I got my BFP for my oldest because I'd have surgery for endometriosis 1 week before I got pg!


Since I wasn't seeking pregnancy either time I wasn't as cautious about what I put in my body and the only thing I can think of that made the difference is that I was drinking the nights I conceived both of them(My oldest was conceived on New Year's Eve). Now, I'm NOT advocating drinking to get pg and I'm not saying "Oh, relax and it'll happen," but, for me, perhaps reducing my stress and worry allowed the little one to burrow down in the right place and let my body make the hormones it needed to sustain the pregnancy! All I know is I'm truly blessed and hope that everyone else who's seeking a baby will be to!

J.


I think that what this client is really trying to point out, that sometimes not thinking about ttc, and being focused on other aspects of life will sometimes help your body to relax at the same time as your mind and make trying to conceive easier.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

hello to you all!

congrats to the winner who is JILL (posted number 9) I wish I could have gotten you all to be winners! Please email me at cheri22@gmail.com with "blog winner" in the subject line

Its been a busy week. From my Internet acting funny and sometimes deciding not to work at all, and from my daughter (youngest) waking up and going through what appears to be separation anxiety. Lets just say its been a long week with very little sleep!

My youngest turns 7 on sunday which is going to be alot of fun. For some reason I really love the number 7 and think of this year being a very lucky one for her.

I recently got news from a friend who happened to know my mother, and actually told me something that really helped to make everything make more sense in regards to what happened. I feel more "accepting" of her passing which certainly makes it easier.

I do have some more stories of inspiration to post and will try and get another one up tomorrow night. For those of you expecting readings, thank you for your continued patience.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Be careful of what you wish for!

I really miss my mom. For those of you who are unaware, she passed away on March 8, 2010. With mothers day coming around its been even harder. I try and avoid stores where there is mothers day displays. I know sounds silly, and I am thinking I should probably stop that but its what makes things better right now.

I have asked my mom on more than one occasion to come and visit me in a dream. I usually dont have to wait and get a vision from her almost immediately. The last time a few nights ago with her telling me how much she loved me and wanting me to pass that information to my sister and her husband. Letting them know that they were truely missed. I then thought I would love for a sign to come showing me that she was near.

Well, thats exactly what I got. First, my cell phone (which is an iphone) started to beep as if I got a text message. I went over, there was nothing on the phone. This happened a few more times that day and off and on the following day too. Each time, the chime showing a message, there would be NO indication of anything being on the phone. I even turned the phone off and restarted it thinking this would fix it (in case it was a bug) Well the second it restarted, same thing, a "message beep" came on almost as if she was taunting me. It would be just like my mom to do that to me. Get me up to go and look and then there be nothing there. She was also very much a computer person. So this is something I could truely see her trying to manipulate.

Well this is not the only part of what has been going on. On Tuesday my friend was over, we had both my daughter and hers in bed for a nap. We heard footsteps behind us, we both turned expecting it to be one of the kids. Nothing there. We start talking again. Again footsteps. My friend actually stood up and walked into both of the bedrooms the girls were sleeping in. The kids were both sound asleep.

Last night, my youngest woke up and I ended up laying in her bed with her and fell asleep. I awoke at 4am with the door being closed. I actually kind sat up to look. I didn't hear anyone walk away but it would loud enough that my youngest woke up too. Thankfully she went back to sleep. I got out of the bed, and walked to the door only to find it only slightly closed just like I had originally left it, and not more closed like it had sounded. It was ODD. No one was even awake to have opened or closed the door.

I have been in the car, and felt really upset about her being gone and then "tuned" into the radio station to have it be a song with words that would totally be what my mom would be saying if she was sitting beside me able to verbalize out loud what she wanted to say.

Its been nice having her around to show these signs.

So just because I feel like it, and its been awhile. I will draw a winner for a FAMILY bypass reading from myself. All you have to do is comment in the post (and for those of you with gmail there is a similar thing to facebook that shows up, you can enter to win too). I will announce the winner on SUNDAY night. (which usually means monday to allow people until sunday night to post lol)

Monday, May 3, 2010

Changing the world, one sperm at a time

When completing a reading for my client, I wrote her this "Have you had your husband tested at all for his sperm count? i just get the impression that they are a bit "slower" than the average. "

Her reply "OMG Cheri I got it and I just read the first line and I’m sitting here crying because yes my husbands sperm are low and he has been taking wheat germ "

I then of course wanting to pass any information I find out to my other clients that will help with trying to concieve, asked her about the wheat germ that they are taking. I thought it would be beneficial to those of you who would be interested in finding out things that are beneficial to helping with the sperm. Here is the information that she wanted to pass along. If you have any questions about it, post in the comment section and I will get you the answers:)

My doctor immediately told my husband to start taking wheat germ once she saw his sperm count being low, she said it would help with the mobility(shape) so i started reading online and found out that taking wheat germ when trying to convieve is beneficial to both female and male when struggling with low sperm count.

so we take two teaspoons daily usually at night because it is soooo gross :)
We figure according to the doctor to take it daily until we get pregnant.
we take it with soy chocolate milk to mask the taste :)

Saturday, May 1, 2010

up, then down, up then down

okay, so this subject line of course could totally relate to MANY things, but lets get our minds out of the gutter! haha! I got back from our trip to Disneyland today, around 6pm. It was really fun and enjoyed my time away but so glad to be finally back and home!

We had to take two planes to get there and two back. It seems that the two planes back have made me feel a bit off. I keep feeling like I am still on the plane and in a bit of turbalance. I really dont like this feeling. Is this called jet lag? I think if I ever go anywhere again, I will make sure its just ONE flight there and back!

Our trip was nice, had its bumps along the way. My youngest (shes two this month) fell in the bath tub on day two of our trip. She slipped and hit her chin on the side of the tub, splitting it open. I had to take her to the hospital and they put in 5 stitches. Thank goodness for travel insurance! Its worth the extra money I spent for that!

Other than that, it went fairly well. Last night we spent our last night at disney, watched the fireworks, and then came home and packed our suitcases. I set the alarm for 6:55am and hit the sack around 11:30pm. Our shuttle was to arrive at at 7:45am to take us to the airport for our flight. Well, 7:30am, my niece says "Cheri, its 7:30am" and I was like "what?" thinking she had to be CRAZY!!. Nope for some reason the alarm did not go off and my niece saved the day! We flew out of bed, threw the rest into suitcases and ran out the door to check out. Thank goodness our shuttle was late, or who knows what would have happened!

I will have to post some pictures for you guys later. I am not on my "main" computer right now where all my pictures are stored.

So tomorrow, I have to clean up a bit, unpack and do laundry, and then will be scheduling requests. I am even hoping to get started with answering some free requests, as I have gotten backed up from requests from FEB 2010 and would like to keep those as current as possible and still keep up with the reading bypass requests.

I have some more stories of inspiration that will be posted coming up as well so keep your eyes open:)

Thank you all for being patient with me while I was away from the computer away on vacation with my family. I do appreciate how accomodating and patient everyone has been.