My mom and I went shopping.....

I know that heading alone is enough to open questions! I went to Zellers with my youngest. She was napping in her stroller, and we headed in. This would have been on Saturday. I usually do some Christmas shopping all through the year and find amazing deals for the people on my list. This christmas is going to be harder than usual as you know my mom passed in march of this year. So its my first christmas without her, and this was the season that was her most favorite. I start walking into the store and to my right, was a women about my mom's height, same hair (a bit fuzzy) same color, same build.. Immediately I think I kinda held my breath. Although I know that she has passed, all my dreams keep telling me shes "alive" (not like we are) and the person there was very much like my mom that my first thought was it was impossible that she was there! That was when I realized, that its times like that, where you can be pretty much anywhere and you see someone who looks exactly liek someone you lost, or out of the corner of your eye, you swear you just saw them pass by.... its your loved ones way of gaining your attention in a prominent manner. They are telling you that they are there RIGHT NOW! This was probably one of the "loudest" messages she has sent and once I clued in that it was a "poke" from her to say "hey I am here" it almost seemed like the energy changed. Like when I was paying attention to the energy in the room and more aware of her close, that I could feel it too.

Too many times when we are preoccupied we dont notice the new vibrations or energy around us and tend to turn off our "psychic ears" so to speak.

I just smiled. I find great comfort in feeling her close by. I drove to her old house on Sunday. As I drove up to her apartment building, my mom's husband was sitting on the chair at the balcony, having a cigarette. My mom smoked as well and I could "see" her sitting in her chair waving and smiling at me.

We can find our loved ones anywhere we look. We might not be paying attention to their every arrival, but they are there. If you are really missing them, try and goto a place that they frequented while here. Or an object that you have of theirs that meant alot to them. I usually just tell my mom (in my mind) that I need her, and would really like to feel her close or to have a sign from her that shes close by. More times than not, I feel an immediate "hug" internally that lets me know shes close....but its always extra special to see the other signs as well.