Move on over, there is a new pansey in town

I know that most of you will remember about the pansey storey from many years ago. For those of you new to my blog and have not heard this storey, I will give you the "short' version.

Ever since I was little, a purple wild pansey would grow wild in our grass. As a child I loved this flower and it drove my dad crazy. You cant purchase this flower in the store, it ONLY grows wild. (its really tiny). It would grow ONLY in the grass. My dad would do everything he could to remove it, and yet it would be back. When I was 18 my mother, my sister and I moved into a different area of town because my parents separated (and later divorced). The house we moved into, later that year, the same wild purple pansey started growing underneath the holly tree. Our landlord at the time asked us why we would bother planting the pansey underneath the holly tree (its prickly for those of you not familiar). After explaining that we did not, he mentioned its NEVER been there before.

I even got a tattoo of the same purple flower on my lower right hip. I really feel that this flower is a symbol of good luck, and that its from my grandmother on my dad's side (who died when my dad was only 16). I have talked to my dad about this, who also agrees that he believes its from her as it was her favorite flower as well.

I have lived in various cities throughout the many years I have been alive, and in each house, in the spring/summer, no matter where I have been, the purple pansey has shown up, and each time the landlord has told me it was not there before.

Since being in the house we are now (since July 5 years ago) Every year its come back. The same flower, same location (down the dirt path beside our driveway). Its my favorite flower and I always talk to it (Yes I pat it and tell it hello lol). Well, a week ago, walking to my van I notice a pansey in the grass, and not in its "normal" location. This flower is DEFINITELY trying to stand out.. and you know what, its not the exact same. This one has a YELLOW face. I have NEVER seen this type before, and the first impression that came to my mind... this one is from my mom (passed march 8, 2010)

I love paneys. (top is the "regular" pansey and below is the new one)

Taken from James Van Praaghs facebook posts. I thought this was truely amazing!

Here I am preparing a venue before I perform readings........notice how many spirits came in when I called them....

Wanting to know about the Secret Psychic?

Well I have offically been given the go ahead to release her information! Her site is up and running (has a few glitches, but still okay to use!) I actually went ahead and paid for a reading myself just to get her used to the way the site works. I asked her to connect to my mother who passed away a year ago in March. I asked her to please tell me what it was that my mother said to me, when I was a block away from her house (this was after she had passed away and I had not made it there yet). I know what she said, as it is still crystal clear in my mind to this day, and wanted this to be my confirmation that shes coming through to other people.

I will actually copy/paste the reading I received from her for you to see for yourself.

My message was this " its ok you'll be fine. slow down just slow down and breath. " I don't know why this came, but I assume it was in reference to your condition at that time. Looking for a message at this time u are being told to keep looking after HIM. Apparently you also know who Him is. Your Mom is coming to me in a soft blue glow and feels very calm. There is a great quietness as well. It was a VERY comforting feeling and I believe I am to relay this comfort to you. Hope this answers your question. Yes I need to tweak my site a bit, but things are coming through good now.

Now what my mom said to me right after she passed and before i could get to her house was "rally racer rally racer". This was her "sarcastic remark" that she would often use when she wanted me to slow down, but did not want to come across as bitchy. The "him" in the information is actually in direct reference to her husband. I have been doing what I can to try and be there for him and include him in our lives still as hes very much a part of this family.

So I actually cried when I read her reading for me as it confirms the messages that I have received from my mother. (sometimes its harder to "hear" people who have passed over when your so emotionally connected.)

Okay, so the moment you have been waiting for...

www.sizzlinpsychic.com (copy and paste this in your browser)

Her name is Marguerite

If you decide to give her a try (I trust her and recommend her) make sure that you let her know that Cheri22 sent you. Hopefully that can get you some special treatment! lol.

To kick off her site the right way, the first THREE people who post in the comments section of this post, I will pay for your one question reading!!

The boogeyman in your closet... or monsters under the bed?

I have been thinking about this for some time now, trying to put it all together. Most of us who already have children already here or remember as a child the "boogeyman in the closet" or a monster under the bed. What is it? An overactive imagination or is there something there that we as parents are no longer able to see?

I have the answer, and it might be more simple than you think. I actually think that our guides and loved ones who have passed over are in that area. Not that they are hiding in the closet and ready to jump out at you the first chance that they get...but because with the cover of the clothes and different shapes its easier for them to blend and not be noticed as easily.

So they are not right IN the closet, but seem to be right near it. So if your closet door is open chances are that they are standing in the doorway.

I know that kinda sounds creepy, but when your heading to bed, your more relaxed, they can come in and see you, and just send their love. Its easier to be in an area that wont grab your attention and startle you. So the closet it is!.

The other night, I actually went to the closet to close it a bit (I hate an open closet and has ALWAYS made me uneasy when I was going to bed) and actually had a vision of someone trying to pull me in! okay, I didn't get pulled in, but it was freaky enough that I closed the closet door in a hurray! I dont think that they would have actually done it, but I think that it was meant as a joke to provide me that mental image.

So the more I thought of it, the more I understood why alot of them would choose to come at that time, and why they would choose to be in that area.

So if the closet door is closed where are they? Probably located in a spot of your room where its more "busy". Do you have a book case, or a dresser with alot of things on it? The more to distract your eye the better!

Any thoughts?

Dreams are not always "simple"

Sometimes dreams can be unpleasant, but still have great meaning.

My dream last night seemed to have been both. A little disturbing, yet something that needs to be shared. In my dream, I was sitting down in a room talking to my mother. We were chatting and having a good time, talking about anything and everything. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw outside, three black shadows that were moving about. It was a bit weird to see, but I immediately thought "death". I ran out and started to "demand" what they wanted. This is when they came into focus and I was able to see them better. Now the fact that they appeared as movie stars was something funny. (the one guy who did most of the talking actually looked like the guy who hosts Dancing with the stars). I do not actually think that when we die that a look alike movie star comes for us, but it was just the face that they showed in my dream. They told me that one of us had to go now. They talked in riddles. Referring to something about "twins" or "dual personality". It was actually quite annoying because they were not giving me a straight answer as to who they came for. So wasn't sure it was my mom, myself or my sister. My mom, hearing how upset I was, came out to see what the commotion was. It was then that the "Samuel Jackson" look alike came forward and said "there you are" and reached for my mom. He touched her and she died. I remember freaking out,and screaming for someone to call 911. That is when I woke up. I told myself that I did not want to continue that dream, that I choose not to and did not want to go back and see what else happened. I remembered calming myself and blanking my mind so that when I went back to sleep, I would perhaps dream something else. Well apparently it was not meant to be.

When I got back in my dream, I walked into this restaurant, I knew my mom was gone, and was upset, but wanting to protect my sister, I went and grabbed her as I walked by and gave her that "expression" that told her she needed to come and used the word "mom". She was kinda startled, but came with me anyways. We got to where they had put my mom's body and as I approached my mom she looked up and said "hi"... Every single dream I have had about my mom has been a way to show me that shes "alive". If you go back to previous posts dating back to march when she first passed, this is how all of my dreams have been. Where in my dream I had known she was gone, but she would say to give her a few weeks and that she was not really dead. In this dream too. The "twin" reference from the "spirit of death", was in reference to the fact that we are in our bodies and yet we are also spirit.. does that make sense? My mom really wants me (and everyone) else to know, that death is just a word we use while we are here. Once our bodies have "expired" (gosh that sounds horrible! sorry!) we are free to leave. It allows us the ability to come on a spiritual journey here, and learn for ourselves, that will help enlighten us even further.

Every time I have this type of dream, it has come when I have had a few bad days where I am missing her terribly, and this is always her way of showing shes here.. that she is with me.

As I was using the washroom this morning (I know, like you wanted to know) I was thinking of this dream, how to post it on the blog so that everyone can get the most out of the experience, and all of a sudden a drop landed on my hand. If I had been outside, I would have sworn it was going to start to rain. I looked up to see if there was a leak, or something where this drop would have come from.. nope... I looked back at my hand.. nothing. I know it was not in my imagination, I felt it. My spiritual side, had given me the image of a "tear", but since I knew I was not crying!

Two nights ago, while laying in bed, not quite time to get up. I heard a noise, and then felt someone "tap" my pillow right behind my head. (I was on my side, so it tapped behind my head at the side of the bed.) I thought for sure that my youngest (shes 2) had come into the room and tapped my pillow to let me know she was there. I turned my head to see her.......no one was there.

Hopefully like myself, you guys will take comfort in knowing that death is not the end... and that our loved ones who we miss as we continue on our own journey in this life, are never truly gone, and are often following us, peeking in on us, and helping where they can.

My mom and I went shopping.....

I know that heading alone is enough to open questions! I went to Zellers with my youngest. She was napping in her stroller, and we headed in. This would have been on Saturday. I usually do some Christmas shopping all through the year and find amazing deals for the people on my list. This christmas is going to be harder than usual as you know my mom passed in march of this year. So its my first christmas without her, and this was the season that was her most favorite. I start walking into the store and to my right, was a women about my mom's height, same hair (a bit fuzzy) same color, same build.. Immediately I think I kinda held my breath. Although I know that she has passed, all my dreams keep telling me shes "alive" (not like we are) and the person there was very much like my mom that my first thought was it was impossible that she was there! That was when I realized, that its times like that, where you can be pretty much anywhere and you see someone who looks exactly liek someone you lost, or out of the corner of your eye, you swear you just saw them pass by.... its your loved ones way of gaining your attention in a prominent manner. They are telling you that they are there RIGHT NOW! This was probably one of the "loudest" messages she has sent and once I clued in that it was a "poke" from her to say "hey I am here" it almost seemed like the energy changed. Like when I was paying attention to the energy in the room and more aware of her close, that I could feel it too.

Too many times when we are preoccupied we dont notice the new vibrations or energy around us and tend to turn off our "psychic ears" so to speak.

I just smiled. I find great comfort in feeling her close by. I drove to her old house on Sunday. As I drove up to her apartment building, my mom's husband was sitting on the chair at the balcony, having a cigarette. My mom smoked as well and I could "see" her sitting in her chair waving and smiling at me.

We can find our loved ones anywhere we look. We might not be paying attention to their every arrival, but they are there. If you are really missing them, try and goto a place that they frequented while here. Or an object that you have of theirs that meant alot to them. I usually just tell my mom (in my mind) that I need her, and would really like to feel her close or to have a sign from her that shes close by. More times than not, I feel an immediate "hug" internally that lets me know shes close....but its always extra special to see the other signs as well.

Where do we go from here?

I had a client recently contact me with wanting to know this information as well as suggested that I perhaps post this on the blog for others that might be wondering the same thing.

First and foremost, from what I have seen and felt, this life is NOT the end. When our bodies die, our spirits are then released. John Van Praagh told us all that there is no pain in death, and that we are all aware of what has happened and at peace with our passing. It tends to be our loved ones who are left here on earth that are more in pain emotionally than the one who has passed. James also mentioned to everyone, that anyone who passes over, will atttend their own funeral or service. It gives them the chance to say goodbye to those that came to pay their respects. For them, its a day of remembering, and don't wish it to be filled with sadness.

Most loved ones who have passed over, will remain here in spirit for a few days to a few weeks. Not because of unfinished business, but because they want to ensure that thier loved ones are dealing with their passing okay. Wanting to ensure that everything is alright and show that they made it with sublte little signs.

After we pass, we seem to go home. From what I have read, its a wide open place. Its almost the same as to what we lived here, but cleaner, more spiritually centred, and just at ease. People are happy and always content and can still fullfill the hobbies and any duties that they enjoyed while they are here. Time is endless, and we all seem to hover in our 30s. (I dont know why, I think I might have picked something in my 20s! lol).

For those of you who have lost a loved one, or someone who is going to pass soon, know that this is not the end. That you will feel the close again. It might take a bit of practice to open yourself up to this new experinece, but there will be times when you know that they are still there, or helping you through certain aspects of your life. During the meditation session with James Van Praagh, its just made it a stronger belief that my own mother who has passed, is never really far.

I know that I told the blog readers before, that its harder for me to cnnect with my mom than it is for me to connect with others who have passed. There is a more emotional connection for me, thus making it harder. But since that session with James, its put a whole new direction for me in the way to connect with her. To be able to feel her close and not just in mind but in body as well.

The one suggestion for those of you who are willing... As for your parents (or others) to write out some memories (good) that they have of you. Either of recent, or when you were younger (or both). As this is a definate keepsake to put aside. Something that you can go back and read and remember your loved one with the happiness of having them in your life and the good memroies, rather than the sadness of them passing and the memories surrounding their death. This is the best way to get through the grieving process and move towards acceptance.

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Life Interrupted...

I guess you never really know when its your time to go. I have a feeling that I will be around 83 when I pass, but as I am not always able to read my own future, I can only hope that part is accurate.

I got news from my mom's husband. Turns out my mom's best friend is now in the hospital in the ICU. I guess a few days ago she went into a diabetic coma and hasn't really come out that well. He heard from her son that shes doing "better" but still only allowed immediate family to see her. Well, I texted him to ask if I could get the room number to send flowers and if he could find out for me. Well, after I sent that, I had a feeling that being in the ICU that you were not allowed flowers (allergies?). I then saw an image of my mom in my mind. (in the same fashion I connect with other clients loved ones who have passed). She shook her head. I then asked if her friend would make it, and again saw her shake her head. I texted my mom's husband again and let him know that I didn't think that she was going to make it, and that I crossed all my fingers like crazy in the hopes that this vision would be wrong. I really really really hope its wrong. (for those of you recently tuning in to my blog, my mother passed away march 8, 2010). During the vision, I also was informed that her organs were going to start to shut down, that there was too much damage, and that they would not be able to heal.


Well a few minutes ago, I got a phone call from my mom's husband, he just got off the phone with the parents of the woman in the hospital. Things do NOT look good. I guess she can't even breath on her own and has to use ventillation. They say it will take a few days for them to find out if she will recover, but at this point, she has not even come back out of her coma.

So, my "request" from you all, is just to keep this women in your thoughts. Her name is Bonnie. I ask that you wish for her to have a safe and fast recovery, but if its her time to go, then to wish her a safe journey home free of any pain or regrets.

This year for me has been filled with loved ones who have passed over. From my grandfather who passed in Feb 2010, to my mom who passed two days after her fathers funeral, to her friends husband who passed 2 weeks after my mom, to know having this happen. Its been a year of learning for me as this is the first time I have lost anyone close to me.

I am getting caught up again in regards to readings, so just bare with me. I am hoping to have a special for this month posted on the blog.

I did it!!!

Okay, I managed to fix ONE computer out of the two! My laptop which at this time, is so much more important than the other one! This is the one I use to do all of my readings at night and so much more important to be able to use. I actually spent the better part of today trying to fix it as it just seemed to be getting worse, and worse, and slower and slower.. okay you get the point. I noticed on this one part of my computer it had an option to "restore to a previous point". Hmmm.. I clicked on it, worried I would wipe my computer clean. It actually allowed me to restore the computer to August 6th, 2010, which was 5 days before I downloaded whatever program that caused all of these problems to begin with. So basically anything installed after that day, no longer exists! I could be naieve in thinking that it fixed the problem, but everything seems to be working perfectly now so I guess time will tell.

Another exciting thing. I found out that James Van Praag is coming to town! Okay, so hes coming close to town. It will take me about 2 hours to get there. He is doing a small venue and I bought my tickets! My sister and I are going to attend together and I am hoping that my mother will come through. If she does not, I will understand that there might be someone else who needs his help more. I have read alot of his books which I find very intriguing and his website is really helpful and full of insight. (Hes also on facebook!). Hes one of the people who started the Ghost Whisperer.

Has anyone else read any of James Van Praag books? Which ones did you enjoy?

A gift from my mom?

A day or two ago, I asked for my mom to give me a sign that shes still around me. I think we all like to have signs here and there that are loved ones who have passed over are still very much close to us and alright. Last night I had a dream. I remember every detail, every feeling. I also remember waking up happy because of it.

In my dream last night, my mom came to visit. I know that this was more than just your ordinary dream. Imagine my surprise when she walked up to me in my dream and told me she was "alive". I was shocked, yet there she stood. She explained that her breathing was really quiet and the Dr's did not know until they plugged her in. Now that they had, she had enough energy to come about and come "alive".

I was so excited to hear this news, that I started thinking of what to tell all of her friends. It was only March 2010 we had her funeral and paid for all of these expenses. My mind was amuck with excitement over all the possibilities. It was really nice to have her so close.

I woke up, even remembering the fact that of course we had her creamated and that this was "just a dream" but knowing it was more than that.. feeling it was more than that.. its given me a content feeling.. Knowing it was the best sign she could give me to let me know shes crossed over successfully and is now strong enough to come back and start showing us.

With most loved ones who have passed over, they will usually hang around for a few days to a week or two to ensure that their loved ones are "accepting" of the death. After that the journey home starts. I usually find it takes me about 6 months from the time they have passed to be able to come through fully to me so that I can pass on the details to others, but for some reason felt that my mom was able to come through stronger for me after this short period of time.

I actually really do consider this to be her present to me!


I have more stuff to come to the blog. I want to use the web cam to help guide everyone through a meditation to cleanse themselves and help enlighten their spirits. I think that will be fun to do! Especially so I can walk you all through it rather than hoping you can interpret what i mean from my written words. I just need time to put it all together and then will post it for you all!


Dont forget to see the web message below and enter to win:)

A coincidence...or help from beyond?

Those of you who are following along the blog for a long time know that my mom passed away on march 8, 2010. Those of you who follow me on facebook know that I was going to play bingo with my sister, my two aunts and my sisters friend. Saturday would have been my mom's 57th birthday. Rather than sit at home and mop about and miss her like crazy, my one aunt suggested we all head to a bingo hall and play in her memory. This was really fitting as my mom LOVED bingo. I agreed even though it was about 1.5 drive for me, thought it would be fun to get together with them all and play. Turns out the games were each worth 1000.00. That certainly helps too!

They were computer monitors that you touch when you got a number. It was fun. During one of the games, my Aunt (which is my mothers sister) pulled out a picture of my mom and startted to rub it across the screen. Saying "Come on sheila, help me out". next thing I know, she punches me! I was a bit shocked, and said "hey whats that for!" (in a joking way) and she points up at the monitor. Turns out the number that just popped up was the number she needed to call bingo! As per the agreement she made with us all before even coming to bingo was if anyone won we would all split it.

Well about an hour later, playing the games as it goes along, each of us getting closer to calling but not getting the right number before someone else. We still were having a really good time. My Aunt again pulls out the picture of my mom and says the exact same thing as before. What do you know, her ball shows up in the monitor and she calls bingo again. We are all beyond excited for her (and us as well as she has to split it up!)

It was getting closer to the end of the night and not much time left before it was time to go, I knew me having an 1.5 drive left ahead of me and its already late at night, decided to get going without playing the last game. They mentioned it wouldn't take long and if I left they didn't have to split it with me. (said in a joking manner). I had already been given an impression from my mom that it was "enough" with what we already had, and was happy with what I came home with. I had planned on buying myself a new lawnmower for my birthday this year (its on the 17th of this month) and now I have the money to do so. So thank you mom!

A "gem" in the middle of "no where?"

Its been now almost three weeks since my mom passed. I would like to say that I am accepting now of her being gone. I think I know its more that although her body is "dead" in this world, shes still very much "alive" spiritually.

Today while in my youngest daughters room, I was laying on the floor and meditating. Calling to my mom in the hopes of communicating a little bit. I wasn't getting an image of her being close by so I sent a mental question asking her where she was. It was then I started to see images which I was able to translate. I thought it was really neat, and felt I would share with everyone. Perhaps it will provide comfort to those of you who have recently lost your own loved ones, or comfort knowing when its your time to pass, that things are not "over".

She showed me an image of two pieces of stripes of paper, this translated showed me "crossroads". She let me know that this is where you go when you pass over and start your journey home. I know for some people, it can take a matter of minutes to get to this "cross roads" and others who are unsure if their loved ones they left behind are okay with them being gone, might hang around for a few weeks before starting thier journey to this place. She then showed me a "gem in the middle". To provide further information that this place is a nice place to go and not give me the impression that its a cross roads or a middle of no where.

She went on to explain (with feelings and pictures) that its a place you goto review your life. The times you enjoyed, the times you didn't, but more importantly was a place that allows you to reflect on your life lessons. Did you learn everything you set out to learn?

This is also the place where you can decide if you want to reincarnate straight away to perhaps finsh life lessons you wanted to learn, or you can decide to go "home" for awhile before deciding to reincarnate or just stay put. Its up to you when and if.

The image she showed me was of her walking along the beach, hold myself and my sisters hands as she walked along. The picture was in black and white. I do not recognize this image, but it was what was flashed across to show me what she was currently viewing. She felt at peace, which I guess does provide me comfort.

I know us here still alive are still missing her like crazy.

Well its been awhile, lets give a reading away.. This is for Brooke777. All you have to do is just comment in my post:) Winner announced SUNDAY!

I'm back.... I think

I have been having fairly good days lately.. and then I get a bad one. Last night I had a dream.. my sister called me on the phone to tell me that my mother died. Now in my dream I was already aware that she was dead, so I had no clue as to how it could happen the second time.. Lets just say that its not easy hearing it the second time either!

So today was a rough day for me. I did have somethings that made it a bit brighter. I headed to my Mom's husbands house today to help him look for pictures. My mom's celebration of her life is being done this Sunday and we wanted to find pictures of her to put up for everyone to see. I mentioned to him, that if my mother kept her wedding rings from when she was married to my dad, that I would love to have them. My mom always talked about getting them melted and making necklaces for myself and my sister. We decided to search the jewelry box.

First and foremost, my mom was NOT Mrs Clean.. heck she was not even Mrs. Tidy. She seemed to leave stuff lying around everywhere. I would consider her Mrs. Cluttered. I think that partly due to her depression from previous and I am sure bouts of it at times, it was hard for her to organize things, put things away or even throw things away that didn't need to be kept. She kept everything! Anyways, he opened up the bottom drawer of the jewelry box and inside were two receipts.. the funny thing was that it was for two random things that just did not really "matter". Not like you needed to keep them. So we kinda laughed at that. The second drawer from the bottom contained a small, flat craft wooden PIGS HEAD.. yes.. that was what was in there. My mom's husband and I laughed pretty hard about that. It was almost like it was planted there to get a laugh out of us at that time. I sure needed it. I never found the rings we were looking for, but we realized that just from looking for pictures and the rings, that there are not only going to be memories attached to what we find when we start to sort out the house, but fun stuff too that I am sure will have us rolling in laughter.

As I was driving away from their house, I felt my mother watching from the patio. Sitting in the same grey chair she would always when she had her smoke and she waved. I wish I could have seen with my own two eyes, but will have to take comfort in seeing with my minds eye for now.

Tonight, after laying in my youngest bed with her trying to get her to finally fall asleep (was 10pm by the time it happened) someone sat on the corner of the bed.. only no one was there physically. I got a mental image of my mom again, just sitting.. offering support. Not saying anything (either out loud or mentally either).

I think today was a hard day as well as I had to pick up my mothers ashes. They will eventually be spread somewhere special. We are probably going to wait till closer to her birthday in June to decide where and as a family (me, my sister and my mothers husband) will go and do it together.

So, I am back online, I am back to answering emails and doing predictions. I am behind a few days with them, so please continue to be patient with me. I will do my best to keep going strong, while still trying to make sure that I allow myself the opportunity to grieve if I am having a bad day.

Thank you all for your kindness and support during this difficult time. I appreciate it!

The voice of reason

It was a long day even though we only stayed for an hour at the celebration of life for my grandfather. (May he rest in peace). It started off as any other day (besides where we were headed) and I found myself annoyed. Hoping that my Cousin who is driving me nuts lately would not be there, and then moving on to thinking it would be nice if my Mother in law was not coming either. (now dont get me wrong, shes a wonderful woman, but she still drives me nuts!) Immediately my thought was answered by my guides and they said "its not about you". Which could not be more true. This day was NOT about me, but in celebration of my grandfathers life. It didn't matter if my cousin was there, or if my mother in law came with us. These were the people that were heading there to pay respect to my grandfather and his memory. So my guides were so true in their answer.

The other instance, was me "whining" about how my grandfather has not come to visit me, either in a dream or in person. I being more "awakened" than some in my family figured I would get a sense of him "first". I can't say I wasn't disappointed that he has yet to make his appearance. It was at the celebration of life, that i realized why. My Uncle got up and make a small speech about my grandfather. It was nice. I looked over at my mother and her siblings (there are 5 kids in all) and each one was teary. My mom them took the "stage" and went up. She played a song that my grandfather song to her when he went away on business and she played it for everyone there today. This is when I started to bawl. It was also then that I noticed my grandfathers energy sitting up on stage, facing towards everyone, holding a glass of what appeared to be some sort of "liquor" (I dont think you can drink when your gone, but perhaps because he was a drinker here in life it was the image he projected?) The vision in my minds eye clearly showed it in his left hand, he was still overweight and had his right hand resting on his right leg/knee area. His shirt being of lighter color and wearing brown slacks... he was smiling.

After the song was over and my mom sit down I walked over to hear and told her it was her that made me cry. That I was okay up till that point. My family has a way of joking around to try and brighten up a sad situation. My mom then told me that she has been dreaming of that song playing over and over in her head like a broken record for the last week.. That she KNEW she had to play it today as her way of saying goodbye. This is again when my guides made it known "its not about you". Which made me realize that although I am sure that my grandfather would have love to make an appearance known to me, there were people in his life that needed him more, and is where he spent his time.

I think that today has been a bit of a eye opener in a way. I know life is "short" as we know it. I hear countless people asking what happened to the time and hearing others saying its just flying past. I think that too often we internalize about how we feel about someone, or something or some situation and how it effects us. What we get out of it, how it effects us, our mood..etc.. and so little do we often see the overall picture. How this one person touched many liefs, how it affects us all. I think that this can be applied to so many situations. Being more open minded about how it all works is sometimes the first step in being more "awakened" spiritually. Allowing you to get a sense on how it feels for everyone and not just yourself. This also I think helps us to connect to all of humanity.

I know being an empath has allowed me to feel what others are feeling and know their situation. My friend called me yesterday. They have had a HORRIBLE few years. Starting with the passing of her husbands mother to brain cancer, to him almost being killed in a work place accident, and them still having trouble finding him solid work.... I went over there yesterday, I bought them a gift certificate to a local grocery store, and a pack of razors (she told me she was using the same razor for the past YEAR) and dropped it off. She felt bad about taking it, but it made me feel good to be able to do it.

So I guess, this is just to say.. do a little good for someone else today (or this week) no matter how big or how small it is, everything matters... everything will add up into something good. This post will also be a give away for a reading from me today. There is a catch... If you win, you have to pass the reading to someone you know... Winner announced TUESDAY. (dont forget, another blog contest is below!~)

Today is the day

Well as most of you know, my grandfather died last week. I know, great way to start a topic on my blog. Well, today is going to be the day that we all go and celebrate his life. I think that its also the first time I really have not felt a connection with him since he has passed over. Usually people stay a few days to a week (or longer if they feel that their loved one needs them and can't do it without them) and then they go into the light so to speak and it usually takes me 6 months before I can reach them. Not sure if it takes that long to transition or perhaps build up enough strength that I can reach them. So usually within the first few days to a week its the easiest to connect with somenoe who has passed, or after the 6 month mark. I really do not feel my grandfather around. I have not had him come visit in a dream either. I know its harder to visit with your own loved ones than it is to help someone else....but I get for some reason, that he was tired of being here (he suffered from dementia, vision loss and other such things) and was ready to head home. Hopefully he can be there for the service as I really think that there is going to be alot of people that are going to celebrate his life tomorrow. Hopefully its about memories and happiness, than sadness and grieve and regret. I hope people remember the time that they had with him, the memories they created rather than grieving the ones that they did not. The shoulda coulda wouldas should remain at home and the "I did, or we did" should show up. I am looking forward to hearing the loving stories of his life.

So to make this a post to create happiness... if you have had someone pass over and want to connect, post a comment in the post... I will draw a winner Sunday.

your loved ones are always with you....

I guess this post could not have come at a better time. About a week ago, I was in the shower (one of my alone times! lol) and I was thinking. I wanted more information on how to translate when someone crosses over, which "side" they come from. Its then that my guides provided me the diagram that I have shown below. Its showing that we are always surrounded by the ones we love. Here and into the afterlife. Our guides continuously follow us around and try and guide us in not only the important things in our life, but sometimes the silliest too.

I posted the other day about following your guides advice even though small and I really should have listened to myself. Yesterday before having to take off my heart monitor (for fast heart beat they think it might be stress) I decided to take my youngest and my two daycare kids to the park. I am 3/4 of the way there, and think that I should be taking the kids to the washroom. I recognized the suggestion, but felt if I listened to stopping at the pool first to use the washroom, then my youngest would assume we were going swimming and then freak out when I did not take her in the pool. So I IGNORED that voice giving me the suggestion and carried onto the park. I get there, kids are out and having fun.. literally FIVE MINUTES goes by and the 5 year old had an accident. He said he just could not hold it anymore. I told him if he had let me known sooner, although we were not close enough to goto the washroom he could have peed on the tree!!! So needless to say, something that would have taken me about 5 minutes for the washroom break when I was "told" to do it, ended up costing me 30 minutes in time to rush back to my house, give him a pair of my eldests daughters jeans while I ran his clothes through the wash/dryer.

So sometimes listening will definately be worth it! I am kicking myself as I do recognize when they are giving me an idea that should be followed, but we all have free will and so we sometimes choose not to follow along:) I guess for those of you who are just learning to tune into your guides its harder to follow as your not always sure if its your own thoughts or that of your guides. The more you listen, the easier it will be to recognize where its coming from:)

Now to also start this off... my grandfather passed away last night at 1:30am. I do feel slightly bad about it of course because I did not make as much of an effort as I should have about going to see him. I could give you excuses about working, daycare, busy, life.... but truth be told, its about WHO is in your life, not about WHAT.. so please, make sure that you spend the time with your loved ones and not have to think about "I wish I had....".

From the draw the other day where we were able to draw five people to win (CONGRATS AGAIN!) Danielle who was post #33 has recently already recieved a reading from me and has decided from the goodness of her heart, that rather than using it again on something she already now has the information from, shes picked another person from the list to win. She has picked VERONICA!!! So congrats to you veronica on winning. Please contact me at cheri22@gmail.com in order to claim your reading!






The chart above explained:

"You" - Obviously refers to yourself

"Significant other" - This refers to your husband or wife, or partner, significant other..etc.

"Guide" - This is your spirit guide(s) They always follow behind you

"paternal/maternal relative" - This is the spot that any relatives would occupy when accompaning you or when involved in a reading wanting to show the connection they have with you. This would relate to any cousins, grandparents, aunts/uncles..etc.

"kids" - this is the spot that they show when a child is on its way or has a message for you (which in turn you might dream about. they could occupy this spot when waiting to be concieved or already on their way (pregnancy)

"Teacher" - This is the spot that your guide or loved one who has passed over will occupy when in the middle of helping you with a lesson or difficult time in your life.

let me know if you have any questions about this chart, or they way I have interpreted the information. Its meant to show you that your never truely alone when it comes to energy and spirits. That they are always surrounding us in love and understanding. If you were to feel an energy/spirit that you were unsure who you were feeling, you can use this chart to try and interpret the images as well.

Congrats to......

TRACY, number 19 post!! Please email me and I will get you in touch with Brooke777 for your free reading!

I am not sure who of you have chosen to follow along with the olympics, but looks like the torch is now lite, and everything is ready to go. I am actually hoping to take my daughter on Monday to go downtown Vancouver to see what we can see. I have been told that there are various locations that have allowed countries from out of town to set up and do some pavillions. Showcasing their country and culture. Who knows what else we are going to encounter but I am thinking its going to be fun. I will try and take some pictures so that those of you who do not live in BC and might not see this otherwise can catch a glimpse!

As for the first horrific crash in the olympics, I can't believe it. I did watch it on the news and couldn't believe how much of the accident they showed. Lets just say that I am wishing I hadn't as it seems to be imprinted in my brain. His poor family!

I also wanted to say that those of you with strong empath skills and good with connecting to people who have passed over, hopefully you wont have the same experinece that I had. A client showed me a picture she got from a friend where its clearly showing a little girl standing in the picture and was of spirit form. I was able to get a name i felt connected to, but the one thing is it was almost like now she choose to follow me around last night. Like by channeling her information through the photo was allowing her a portal to come here and visit! Totally creeped me out and had no idea it could be done like that. I told her to go back to where she came from and even tried suggesting she go into the light. So no idea if my clients friends have their ghost back or if shes gone from here for good.

Thank you everyone for continueing to read my blog and participate in my contests and other comments you make. I really do appreciate it.

a day late.. but here is the winner!!!

SHANISE!!! Congrats to you on winning this contest! Please click on the lower right link labeled Brooke777 and email her. Let her know you were the winner of the blog and she will take care of the rest:)

February is a month that should be about "love". I think that every month is a month you should always try and connect with your spouse. I know its hard while ttc, and with life being busy sometimes its easier to just go through the emotions rather than putting in alot of effort. In the next day or two I will be posting a way you can strengthen your bond with your partner that's easy and fun to do!

I just wanted to post something today thats been happening at my house for the last week. Its kinda "Creepy"....I have been hearing our baby gate at the top of the stairs open and close. Only no kid has come down the stairs (They were to be in bed). My husband has heard it once as well and both of us listened a bit more to hear if we could see/hear anyone. I even walked up the stairs and kinda peeked around. Both of our girls were in bed and fast asleep. LIttle did I know this would only be the start of it.

I am excellent when it comes to communicating with loved ones who have passed over for clients, but this spirit would not let on who it was. The only information I could gather was it was a male. It was NOT my spirit guide Tomas, and this spirit seemed to give off a mischeivious feeling. I tried to ignore it, I even asked for it to go away! lol. Nothing. Then over the last few weeks (last week especially) was getting annoying and yet also creepy. I could hear footsteps coming up behind me, and turn and no one there. (girls in bed and husband out at hockey). I would feel someone watching and again no one there. It was literally driving me crazy knowing that "someone" was there. One night, as I lay in bed (with the door open so light could shine in, cause it was really starting to get me a little on edge) I used the light to surround and protect myself from any negative energy, I used it on my girls and the house (again husband was at hockey). I even tried telling this spirit to head into the light!! Everything I could except the white candle trick to cleanse the house. I emailed Brooke777, Leah and Elisabeth with my concerns. Usually if you ask them to leave and go into the light they do. I have NEVER dealt with a spirit who refused that. Brooke777 emailed me back with her take on what was happening which I had felt connected to what she said. Then I heard back from leah who too also had some good information for me.

Later that night, nothing had happened. No noises, no feelings...nothing. It was as if he just left now that everyone was on to him, and it was no longer "fun". I dont get the sense he was doing this to be mean, but was certainly getting a kick out of keeping his identity a secret and making me nervous. I woke up that morning and the house felt "clean".. "lighter" in a spiritual sense and it felt good (the last few weeks had an energy about it.. a "fog" if you will... I thought it was amazing.. it was also the first night my youngest slept through the night. I emailed Brooke777 and Leah and told them what happened and how "clean" the house now felt. Leah actually emailed me back, letting me know that night she meditated on me and the house and did a cleanse.. so now it makes sense why it felt good to have his energy "cleansed" and have my house back!

I am still learning about the spirit world myself and have never encountered this, so will have to learn on how to do a cleanse the way Leah did it. If anyone else feels this way, perhaps give her an email to find out her take on it, and what she can do to help?

Today just before heading into the computer room to post this blog, I heard the baby gate again... My youngest is sound asleep. Hopefully its not another visit from Mr Sneaky :)

(PS. since the house has been cleansed, my youngest is now sleeping through the night. if you follow my blog from previous, you know that she wasn't for the longest time! I am not sure if its because of the cleanse, or perhaps her teeth are finally through, but in anycase, its surely welcomed!!!)

okay, this is driving me CRAZY! lol

As I mentioned in posts below about how when I start my lime wire songs it was picking Michael Jackson songs. Well after this happening EVERY SINGLE DAY Since he has passed, I figured it just had to be a fluke. That perhaps by saying to launch, it was picking a song in the middle. Well, today I figured I would do something different. I put all the songs on the play list, I then clicked on Carrie Underwood and said launch on her. Previous to his death, this worked, and would start with her song and play down the list from there. Nope, not tonight. It keeps going to Michael Jackson Smooth Criminal song and wont allow me to start on anyone else!!

Now I am starting to wonder. Does anyone else have Limewire have a problem with starting with a song of their choice? Or is Michael Jackson haunting me? lol

Michael Jackson....

I am sure that your hearing about this EVERYWHERE right now. Its been on the news both the radio and the TV over here. I am actually shocked of his passing to be honest. I think that his death really affected me as did Princess Diana, and yet I knew neither. Not really sure why. Perhaps because of their fame being on higher levels?

I asked myself and my guides why this death would bother me, and I just get the sense it was because he was so misunderstood in so many aspects. The image my guides provide is of someone who was depressed, trying to hide it and put on a happy face. I get the sense that he did not like who he was on the inside, as a way to mask that person, he made changes to the outside to try and "disguise" who he was inside. I guess I had always assumed it was more about vanity than perhaps trying to change who he was.

I also get the sense hes feeling "free" right now and at peace, even though his passing was unexpected. I know right now that they are saying his death was related to cardiac arrest, but I feel later reports will show it to be linked to "chemical substances". I believe a bad combination of pills (not on purpose)

This is what my guides are showing me as a way to put it all together for me. Is anyone else touched by his passing?

PS. I enjoy listening to music to "zone" out to and complete my readings. I like the background noise as a way to meditate a bit. I just launched limewire, and I select all the songs, I then launch it and just let whatever come up... guess what.. yep, Michael Jackson "Smooth Criminal" just came up and played first! What a hoot!