7 years ago today

I gave birth to my "baby" girl. I can't believe that she turns 7 today!. We are having her birthday party today as well and shes got about 20 kids coming over to jump on the trampoline and play in the bouncy castle and whatever they happen to get into. My mom's husband is also doing a magic show for the kids. Hes really good and I know the kids are going to enjoy it. Hes pretty entertaining.

I remember when I was trying to concieve for her. After pestering my husband for a YEAR after we got married. He wanted to wait a year after we were married, and I wanted to start right away. He gave in just shy of a year. I remember the first month when we tried and my period showed up. I was discouraged. I guess I really just wanted to have it happen the first time! The second month I was upset when my period showed up and complained to my husband who told me it would happen when it was supposed to and not to stress about it (if only it was that easy right??) When my period showed up the third time I cried. I will admit it, I did. It was then that I was doubting that I would be able to have any kids. I know, sounds silly to worry about that, but I bet you can all relate. It was then that I realized I was approaching this wrong. Here I was bawling that I was not pregnant yet, and very upset, and realized that trying to concieve should be just as much fun as any other time in my life. I then told myself that I was not going to get upset about it anymore. That I knew that it would happen when it was meant to and was releasing myself of all my stress and worry.

It was then that I "invented" my positive thinking excersies that I have posted on my blog (you probably can locate it on the label section on the left side of this blog). I remained in bed for 20 minutes after having sex, never getting up, and then I saw with my mind, the sperm traveling up, watched them go into the egg, and then saw the egg split into a baby and implant into my uterus (of course all using my mind) I said a few positive things (again posted with the instructions should you want to try this too!) That month, my period showed up again. I didn't think anything of it, did not get upset and just decided to let things happen as they may.. A day later, my period dissapeared. I was a bit shocked. I took a pregnancy test and it was POSITIVE! Imagine my excitment!

I actually had a social induction with my daughter. I had wanted my Dr I had during my entire pregnancy to deliver my baby so she had me "gelled". It was 9pm at night the contractions started. I actually called the hospital around 12:30pm because the contractions were around 5 minutes apart. The nurse told me I sounded too "chipper" and that I was not ready to come in yet. This being my first baby, I took her word for it. From that time until 2:00am, I slept off and on through my contractions. It was then that I woke up to not being able to breathe through the contractions as well. I called the nurses again who said I should come in to be assessed. I thought, sure, I have seen those baby shows, they bring you in and send you home again! I even told my mother in law not to bother coming and that we would be back. I also said not to bother notifying any of my family as I did not want to have to wake them up for a false alarm.

I got there to the hospital where they weighed me (I still have no idea why they did that!) and was told to go and change into a hospital gown which I did. (still at this point thinking they were going to send me home). It was also now I asked for ANYTHING to help with the pain. Imagine my surprise, when she had to turn me down because she said I would be pushing any minute! Oh my gosh, the first words out of my mouth was "Call my mom!". I had no idea it would all happen so fast. My little girl was born 3:37am. I had only been in the hospital for 45 minutes at that point. My own Dr just about missed the birth (she showed up as my daughter was crowning). I had only been able to use the gas for pain relief and honestly this was all that I found I needed. It really did help me get through the contractions.

So for those of you who are currently trying to concieve, keep the hope alive. Remain positive and try and have fun with the trying part. It will happen and I am more than happy to help direct you to a month and try and help make your experinece a happy one.

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